hiphop
canada
underground
ottawa
top10
life
sad
truth
fire
storytelling
depressing
top100
top50
relatable
Lyrics
I'm sinking low, can't see the sky,
These walls are closing in and I dont know why.
Every smile feels like a lie,
I fake my laughs because i wanna die
No one hears when I scream at night,
I slowly fade away in the morning light.
Just a ghost inside my own damn mind
Hoping it all changes in good time
Woke up to silence, no sound in my chest,
Heartbeats slow like its beggin' for rest.
Tried to call home, no one answers the line,
Even my shadow dont walk beside mine.
Dust on the mirror, I can't face the glass,
Who I was died in the year that passed.
Every breath feels heavy like guilt,
Stackin' regrets like cards I built.
I light up pain just to watch it burn,
Diggin' through ashes, hopin I learn.
But lessons come late when you're barely alive,
Stuck in reverse with no drive to survive.
I count the pills like a prayer I recite,
Tryna find God in a cold street light.
But He don't answer, just silence and rain,
Guess even angels dont fly through pain.
I'm sinking low, can't see the sky,
These walls are closing in and I dont know why.
Every smile feels like a lie,
I fake my laughs because i wanna die
No one hears when I scream at night,
I slowly fade away in the morning light.
Just a ghost inside my own damn mind
Hoping it all changes in good time
Old friends gone, they dont hit my phone,
Guess I'm only loved when Im not alone.
I laugh at jokes when they dont feel right,
Everythings dim up against this fight
happiness feels cold and forced,
Everyone's joyous, I just feel divorced
From the life I lived when I still had hope,
Now Im hangin' by threads, from frayed rope
I see myself in the rearview pain,
A kid with dreams, now just scars and stains.
I used to write songs just to feel alright,
Now I write 'cause its all I got left to fight.
Therapy bills stack next to my bed,
But the monsters still dance inside my head.
And maybe one day theyll finally win,
But tonight Ill smile with this drink and sin.
I'm sinking low, can't see the sky,
These walls are closing in and I dont know why.
Every smile feels like a lie,
I fake my laughs because i wanna die
No one hears when I scream at night,
I slowly fade away in the morning light.
Just a ghost inside my own damn mind
Hoping it all changes in good time
I tried to love but it turned to rust,
Gave it my all, now I got no trust.
I dream of silence, a world gone still,
A place where the hurt dont know my will.
But until then, I walk this night,
A darkened soul in the pale moonlight
And if you hear this, dont look away,
Im not okay, Im not okay.